Sometimes I feel normal. Sometimes I actually feel good about myself. Then I speak. Yesterday I took my dog outside and I felt pretty good about the way I looked and then my neighbor said something to me and I responded. Speaking is not good for my ego. When I speak I feel like sometimes it comes out like “bvdfhsyjuilyhswhbfgnbdfaergag.” 🙂 I know that’s irrational of me to think but I do. Well, it’s gotten A LOT better in the last year and 10 months. I used to not speak in public, I made whoever I was with speak for me. I speak myself now.
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I still hate my speech so much so that I mostly text my friends rather than call them. I listen to the outgoing message on my voicemail because it has my old voice!
I’m very weird about talking on the phone too. I text whenever I can.