After a brain injury, you’re gonna have VERY little control over your moods. It’s indescribably better than it used to be but I still have problems with this. Sometimes I’m a horrible bitch, sometimes I’m unbelievably mean. But now I would like to think I’m rarely like this. Maybe people still think of me as a bitch but I DON’T CARE! Now I can change my mood within minutes with meditation and breath work. The first year after my event this kind of thing was out of control. I couldn’t help it, I had zero control over what I said or the way that I treated people. I can’t keep apologizing for it, it is what it is. It gets better. There are very few people who I called a friend prior to the stroke that I still call a friend to this day. Yesterday I was in an area of town that ex-friends of mine opened a store. That’s what prompted this post, I consider LOTS of people to be ex-friends. For everyone reading this that doesn’t have a brain injury – if you ever experience a brain injury, GOD FORBID, but if you ever do you better hope that your friends are willing to stand by you through all the mood swings. The majority of people in my life were not. When I got sick, there was an outpouring of support. My hospital room was overflowing with cards and flowers. Well, most of that support was fake and not genuine. Now almost 3 years later I can count on one hand the number of people from my old life that are still in my life. Those people are NEVER getting rid of me. I would go to the ends of the earth for them.