The first year, maybe 2 years after an injury like this you’re going to seriously contemplate checking out of this world. I did. I contemplated that a lot, probably everyday. Don’t. Those first couple of years, just stay alive. The hell stops. When I got sick, I didn’t read anything like this that told me that my life was actually going to improve a lot and the nightmare would end. And I read everything. So, if you’re a relatively new stroke survivor, know this – it gets better. That first year Oh.My.God. I so badly wished that the stroke killed me. Now I don’t wish that. The reason I didn’t off myself is – well I’m not 100% sure why.