I’ve talked before about what an impact stress can have on a person but let me tell you something. When I got sick, I was living in an absolutely awful, miserable situation that no one on the planet knew was not great and it stressed me out so much that I considered suicide not because of the stroke, but because of that situation and having to deal with it in that condition. I felt for a while that the stroke took away my ability to make choices and I saw no other way out. But I got out. I left that unbelievably stressful situation 15 months ago and the difference in me is like NIGHT AND DAY. Night and f’ing day. I look completely different, I speak completely different, I walk completely different, I write completely different and I feel COMPLETELY different. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m far from a full recovery and I’ve worked my ass off but I KNOW I wouldn’t have made as good a recovery as I have so far if not for eliminating that stress. If you’re really sick, eliminate as much stress as you can from your life. And don’t feel guilty for having feelings either like I did. I felt incredibly, unbelievably guilty about certain things. I’m way beyond over that. You’re allowed to have any feelings at all and those feelings should be VALIDATED (remember how I did a couple posts about empathy?) If someone tells you that you ‘should feel’ this or that, or ‘you need to’ do this or that, or ‘at least’ this or that – tell that person to shut the eff up because they obviously don’t know what the hell they’re talking about.
Night and Day