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My major in college was Kinesiology.  Nobody has ever heard of that word.  Kinesiology is the study of movement.  That’s the major everyone chooses that wants to go to PT school.  Had I not gone to PT school, I really think that major would have been absolutely useless.  Maybe not, I’m sorry if you googled ‘kinesiology’ and wound up on this page and I called it useless.  Then I graduated from college, went to PT school and became a physical therapist.  Four years after I started working as a PT, I thought to myself “F this job and F this life, I’m gonna have a stroke.”  I very badly wanted a change in my life and I SURE AS HELL got one.  There are probably easier ways to leave a relationship that you hate and there are probably easier ways to lose a few pounds that you hate with and there are probably easier ways to change up some friendships you – well, ‘hate’ is a very strong word.  But I love to do things the hard way.  So I had a stroke to make some changes.  You know, I like who I am MUCH better than my pre-stroke self.  For the first time in my life I feel like I’m really ME and I’m not trying to conform to anyone else/anything else.   So if you want to make some changes, maybe you should consider having a stroke.

This made me laugh.  Mornings are by far my worst time of day.  My stroke was in the morning, my friend thinks that has something to do with it….

morning

And I uhhhh…I don’t know….

wtf  final



Categories: Brain stuff, Health, Recovery, Rehab, Stroke stuff

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30 replies

  1. Wow! And I thought I did things the hard way. Glad you’re recovery seems to be going well and you’re happier. Best to you.

  2. Yeah, I needed to make major changes in my life and the stroke was obviously the easiest way to accomplish all of them.

  3. I was in a first-floor half bath when Tom decided I was having a stroke, and every time I go in that bathroom, I remember those minutes recognizing that something was awfully wrong – knocking the toilet paper roll off the holder and falling with my head hitting the radiator. Part of me hates that bathroom, and part of me loves it because it is so F’ing beautiful.

  4. My head instructor was a soccer star and has a masters in kinesiology as well as geriatrics. We just finished a section in fitness training. It was a sad sad section for me. I’m pretty sure no one will hire me based on that set of skills!

    I was probably in line for some major life changes too but not so sure it was an improvement.
    About mornings…. I just dislike them on principle.

  5. Yep, me too. I was just getting too comfortable in my post stroke routine and getting by. Today I took a tumble. Hit the floor pretty hard and took more than a few minutes to get up.Not hurt except for this old body and pride being bruised…it happens every time I get too comfortable with the changes I’ve made.

  6. Pre-stroke weight: 306 lbs. Post-stroke weight: 210 lbs. You couldn’t ask for a more effective weight-loss program!

    • Very effective for me. Now I have motivation to last a lifetime because it might help to prevent ever going through that HELL again.

      • I lost a LOT of weight too. Unfortunately it is coming back on again as I am feeling better and leading something more like my normal life. I had so many people look at me thinner .. dizzy, with the left side of my face drooping and arm hanging and tell my I had never looked so good. My being very overweight was not a factor in my brain injury no matter what everyone assumed, but I agree anything toward preventing a repeat of that hell is a strong motivator.

        • My weight was definitely the cause. I was monitoring my blood pressure and on medications, but when you can eat a large pizza and a half-gallon of ice cream for dinner, your blood pressure just isn’t going to stay down no matter what you do. It will spike.

          • Wow Scott ! I couldn’t eat that much in one sitting even at 200 lbs. I gotta say I lost thirty lbs in short order after my stroke but it found me again. But then again it could be all the fluids I’m holding in my defunct side too.

            My problem since my stroke is extremely low blood pressure and hypogycemia and before my stroke I was an insulin dependent diabetic and on two blood pressure pills. Strange the way the body flip flops.

            • Jo, yes, I think that all of us have entirely different bodies now. And lives, as Amy has indicated. My pre-stroke life was perfect, and my current life is actually very pleasant. I had a great starting point, it was destroyed, but the remnants have coalesced back into something that I enjoy every day.

            • Yes, stroke can flip-flop a person like nothing else can. Moreover, I’m finding that as I recover, in some ways I’m flopping back over again. For example, some of the emotional and psychological damage I sustained is repairing too, along with the physical stuff. I think it comes from regaining a lot of memories, or maybe from accessing the other side of the brain again. Trouble is, I really don’t want ALL of this recovery because I also gained some good things post-stroke too. Deeper emotions, more creative, more fluid and less predictable—some of this is fantastic. Geez, why can’t I just recover from the bad post-stroke stuff and keep the good post-stroke stuff?

  7. I woke at 3am having my stroke. Needless to say the bedroom is the “scene of the crime” and, as if I don’t already have sleep problems as a result of the stroke, now I’m scared to go to sleep.

    Is there any, dare I say “medical” correlation between strokes and weight-loss? I’ve lost weight too.

    Finally, the extremely furry cat looks more like a primate, LOL.

    • The brain must burn of hell of a lot of calories when it heals.

      • I had trouble sleeping too. I’d wake up at 2 a.m. with all kinds of paranoia running through my head. Guided meditations really helped (I like Louise Hay).

      • Maybe we can get it to work the other way around … If I burn more calories, maybe my brain would heal better. As soon as I lost a little weight in rehab, my therapists freaked out and told me it meant I was losing muscle massand it was the worst thing ever. So, I started eating EVERYTHING, even ordering two desserts. So I lost muscle, gained fat, and have a PCP who lectures me about how my weight is going to creep up over the years. As though I needed to obsess a little more about my weight. I’ve been on a diet since I was 21. Time to start again. Oh, joy.

        • Yeah, the hospital freaked out too at my weight loss and started giving me weight-gain milkshakes. I started dieting when I was 12 and Nixon was the president. My social worker commented the other day about how compared to weight loss, stopping smoking was easy. I replied that compared to weight loss, having a stroke was easy. I know that’s completely insane, but a part of me meant it!

    • Shelly, my understanding about the correlation between weight loss and stroke is that muscles atrophy because of dis-use. 4 years later and I still have no gluteus muscles on my left side: I need a cushion to sit on a hard surface. My other cheek is its fine self.

    • I lost a ton of weight too and I was small to start. I was 120, down to 100 in 2 weeks. It took 2.5years to get back to normal.

  8. I guess that I am the exception. I have gained about 20 lbs since my stroke. I was at a very healthy weight and now I am a bit overweight- I attribute it to a more sedentary lifestyle. I used to be like..go, go, go – all the time.

    I had my stroke in the parking lot of a grocery store. I had just been to the doctor (like 20 minutes prior) because of a pain that I was having in the side of my neck. The doctor said that it was a sinus infection and prescribed an antibiotic and allergy medicine. I took the prescriptions to the drugstore, went out to my car and bam – that’s when it happened. I’m so thankful that I wasn’t driving! It was so sudden and it took me about a half hour to figure out how to get out of the car to let someone know that I needed help. Not so easy when you can’t move your entire right side or talk out loud.

    I can’t say that I am at the point that I’m satisfied that it happened or how I have changed. I liked the pre-stroke version of myself – I’m not sure about this version, yet.

  9. Zack definitely lost weight. He was at 170 before the injury and then got down to under 120 at his lowest. Constantly vomiting and unable to keep food down because the world is spinning can do that to ya. He is no where near his start weight of 170. Even before he got sick he was hardly a big guy. A little belly, but nothing to write home about. It has been hard for him to gain much weight back with the fairly strict vegan diet we are on. But even with going off from time to time to enjoy a meal out with friends or family he doesn’t gain weight…and he eats a lot. I attribute it to the fact that to just merely live he is probably burning hundreds and hundreds of calories…just to function. He’s a skinny dude. I’m ready for some fluff again.

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