When I had my stroke, it was physically taxing to speak. Just talking took an incredible amount of effort and I didn’t want to do it. I used to just grunt. Especially when I was really tired. I would reach a point in the day where I was just done talking and I would just grunt. A friend of mine used to say “are you in grunt mode?” I remember talking to Brooke a while ago and she said “it’s very hard to understand that just speaking could be hard.” It was, it was hard as hell. I forget what it’s like to speak normally and not worry about what I sound like.
For the first time since beginning this blog, I just made myself cry. If you never lost the ability to speak and express yourself, be very grateful.
I sound ok now. Everyone tells me that I sound perfectly fine but to me, in my head, it’s still pretty bad. But it’s ok and it’s not super hard anymore.