Reboot

A little over a year and a half ago, I needed to reboot my life.  When I say reboot, I mean RE THE F*** BOOT.  I didn’t need to reboot because of the stroke, that was 3 years ago.  I needed to reboot my life itself.  But the stroke allowed me to do this. I had a damn good reason to take some time off from life. I re-evaluated every single one of my relationships and let me tell you…..The majority of conclusions of all of those re-evaluations were not very pretty.  Most of the people I called friends were not friends.  Most of the people that I thought loved me did not genuinely love me.  So I kinda disappeared and fell off the face of the Earth for a while.  I deleted all social media(well, except the blog.  Is this considered social media?). I deleted some friends, I deleted some relatives.  I blocked some e-mail addresses and phone numbers.  I did what I had to do in order to stay in this world.  If I hadn’t of done that, I would NOT be in this world. Well I’m still here. I didn’t have a choice in still being here after my stroke but now I have a choice and I choose to show others how to recover from a brain injury because no one told me anything and I don’t want anyone else to go through the HELL I went through.



Categories: Brain stuff, Recovery, Stroke stuff

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21 replies

  1. The Stroke Tribe has got your back now.

  2. Good for you!!! I feel like my stroke gave me “permission” to only do the things I want to do. I used to feel obligated to go to this or that….not anymore. Everything takes enormous effort so I only do the things that I really want to do and of course I only deal with people that I want to as well. I eliminated a few friends that weren’t friends and a bunch of family that are just lame. When you almost die but don’t, you really see who’s important. This is one area with good changes in the aftermath.

  3. Bravo! I think that takes more courage and perseverance than the whole physical recovery. And in my case, that’s been the positive part of having a stroke.

  4. Speaking of social media, I’m back on Facebook. I had a page with a fake name for a while so I could play games but I’m using it again with my real name so if you’re on FB send me a friend request and let’s have some fun on there. šŸ™‚

  5. For me as well, I think this is a universal experience. It allowed me to exit corporate life and focus on my own business. I am not as so called succesful now, but I don’t care. I am now living a much more authentic life than before but I still wish my left arm worked as it used to and that I could wear beautiful shoes…Clearly I am still shallow.M

    • My choice of shoe is MUCH better than it used to be, but I still cannot wear heels and imagine I probably never will. Ah well, heels are really bad for your feet and ankles anyway.

    • I’ll join you on the shallow and wanting to wear cute shoes. I can and do wear shoes with a heel/wedge as long as they have straps. My shoe always falls off on the left( my affected side) if there are no straps. I put all my old shoes in the attic cuz I couldn’t bear the thought that I’ll be like this forever. I still hope someday I’m better and can wear whatever shoes I want.

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