I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster this month. It happens a lot. But this month it was really bad. It’s my stroke anniversary month which makes me go positively crazy, I moved, I got a NASTY cold, I thought my cat ran away for a little while, it was just a horrible month with a lot of stress. So I cried a lot. I thought my boyfriend would think that I was absolutely nuts, damaged goods, and second guess our entire relationship. He did just the opposite. I was a mess one day and crying, and I said to him “I’m sorry, I’m just feeling really sorry for myself.” He replied “I hate it when people say that, these are legitimate feelings that you’re having and you need to talk about them.” Ummm. My God, what a wonderful reply. My entire life, no one has ever said anything like that to me. Until recently, the people in my life would tell me how to feel and wouldn’t let me express how I was really feeling. I was always told “you should do this, you should do that, at least this, at least that, get over it, let it go, it’s in the past.” How dare I have feelings about something.
I’ve learned that “feeling sorry for yourself” and allowing yourself to complain and feel like crap is incredibly necessary. Especially for a highly sensitive person like myself. It’s cathartic and good for your mental health and you’ll feel much better after you release those emotions. If you try to deny them or tell someone else that they shouldn’t feel the way that they feel, it’s gonna come back to bite you in the ass big time.